First Thoughts on VIPASSANA
The first time a heard about vipassana was about 10 years ago. An ex partner did it and was disparaging about my chances of being able to do it. I thank them for their lack of faith. Sometimes we must leave a trail of sweeties for the ego to lead it to the soul work. I was 35 kgs heavier and deep in an emotional breakdown, but some part of me, knew I was going to get myslef into the physical and emotional state to complete the 10 day course. Every time I sat on my cushion at home, a part of me was getting ready, much more than I realised. When life threw me an opportunity to go on the 10 day retreat this January, I knew it was time.
For those who don’t know, vipassana is a form of meditation said to be devised and passed on by the Buddha. The Vipassana Trust is so confident in it efficacy that no one is allowed to donate until they have completed the 10 day course. And even then you are donating to allow people who follow you to complete it, not for your own and in this way the Vipassana Trust demonstrates how spiritually water tight it is. All the people who make your food and serve you are volunteers who have completed the 10 day course. It is not only the technique/ technology but the whole organisation, that is so exceptional and healing. In a spiritual landscape such as the UK, where our commodification of all things is a sickness, the vipassana trust is both inspiration and antidote. Where the spiritual community nauseates, vipassana trust will help you meet it with equinamity.
The actual 10 days of multiple meditations a day, no phone, book, writing, talking or even looking at people should be experienced more than read about. I can only say, do it, dont hesitate. It is one of the most inspiring and empowering things Ive ever done. I can admit I’m proud of myself. I will definitely do it again and will definitely be a server too.
It is hard, it takes courage and discipline, but it is also welcoming, affordable and diverse. There is much less toxic spiritual ego than some other spiritual “communities” I could mention.
Having said that,my damaged ego part was very proud that I only had one cushion all week, as the towers of cushions went up around me. I did it. And you can too.