unintended paralysis

After 7 years of loss that forced me to surrender over and over again, last year was a change of direction, of foundation building, and very welcome relief from the loss and life destruction. Now, however, I find the world opening up with multiple gifts and offers. I hadn’t realised that on mastering the art of courageous surrender it had become a comfort zone. And not only a comfort zone but my powers of intention have atrophied so severely that I am currently crippled by the indecision of a startled rabbit.

I find the duality between surrender and intention is a perfectly symbolised by yin and yang. There is always an essence of surrender in intention and always an essence of intention in surrender. I must leverage this and use my powers of surrender in the cause of intention and try to rebalance this most potent of dualities.

And hopefully make a fucking decision.